Christmas Eve at home.....

I can't believe how sad I am tonight. I had a great day today. Played with Andrew and Lauren... as you can see by the videos below it was so fun. But tonight is so quiet. It is lonely. Papa had to work. So here I sit spending Christmas Eve alone. I couldn't drive the van to Libby's..... it wouldn't have made it in her driveway at all. So here I sit. I always give up the holidays to take the stress off the kids because they all have to juggle being with other family. But it just seems funny having this huge family and being here alone. I know they all have families with traditions and things they have started. Just the circle of life. It sure hits hard sometimes. I miss the kids being small. I miss Christmas at Libby's with Captain Bob and Dad huddled together laughing. I miss watching the kids open presents Christmas morning. I miss the comfort of full bellies and kids playing with their new toys. Life isn't the same. Christmas wasn't the same this year. Not at all.

I also get sad when Christmas is over.... just like my new friend Kelly. It is hard to see the lights gone..... everything seems a little darker. And the Christmas music stops....everything seems a bit more solemn. The decorations come down and get put away for a whole year.... makes you wonder what your life will be like the next time you bring those boxes down. Then I sit and thank God for all the blessings and people He has given me. They may not be in the room with me right now....but I know they love me and I love them. Cherish people in your life....and your time with them....it's very precious.

I pray you are all having a very Merry Christmas....