Our two Mom's!

Here is a photo of me with our two mom's! We went to Sequim to the restaurant on the spit called The 3 Crabs.... a wonderful seafood restaurant!!! num! Little did we know why my dad and sweet husband was laughing during the picture taking time.... they had US 3 ladies under the 3 crabs sign. funny, funny! They sure thought it was! I would give anything to go back to that day!

It has been two years today and it feels like it was only yesterday.... Papa's mom went to be with Jesus. She suffered from stomach cancer and it was really a day of rejoicing when she passed, but the selfish part of us miss her so much. I think about her all the time wishing I could call and talk to her..... hear her southern way of saying Joyce. I loved her so much and I look forward to being with her and my dad again. Here is a website I made for her. Please check it out: http://rememberingwaverly.blogspot.com/

Then I feel bad about my mom. I love her and she is driving me crazy and then I feel guilty about feeling that way! I brought her some things to eat and she got a little nasty with me! Libby was there and we kind of looked at each other... and then Lois called and saved the situation. I left shortly after. My feelings were hurt... mom apologized later and thanked me. Stressful time. You want to help but how much? Do we enable her? I bought some things that just needed a microwave (like precooked low sodium meatballs or these precooked grilled chicken fillets that are low in sodium and really flavorful!) Libby and I separated them into baggies for her and put them in her freezer. I got her a chicken and pasta salad she could nibble on. Things that will help her to take care of herself and build up her strength. She could easily sit and let us girls wait on her but she is capable and needs to take care of herself.

Last night I had a long talk with her. She said it is hard to take care of yourself when you don't care. That broke my heart to hear her say it. I told her how she raised fighters....girls that don't give up when they face rotteness! Mom has been through a lot in her life and never gave up! She is so much better when she fights for someone else... like she did dad...but when it comes to herself she just doesn't care. She doesn't think people care. She is on a sad pity party. I feel so bad for her because I don't know how it would feel to lose so many of your friends and family in this past year and feeling like crap with no strength or appetite. But on the other hand I want her to fight back. I said we need to forget the 3 meals a day.... but she does need to graze.... periodically through the day eat several bites of something or the other. And she needs to walk. If she starts to take ahold of her own health then she won't be butting heads with Libby and I! Last night she told me she didn't need me overnight. I told her to call any time during the night if she needs company. She didn't call and I talked to her this morning and she is fine. Maybe she will start enjoying the peace and quiet? I asked her to please not be crabby at me today when I have to take her to physical therapy. She does not want to go. But Lanny will be with us (bringing the enforcements or buffer) so I don't think she will get snippy with me. Having said all this.... this is tough. I want to control her feelings and I can't. So I turn to the Serenity Prayer I have on my site and try to remember that God will take care of mom. ;D

I am hoping to go see Makoa today!!!! Angela called last night and she is getting off early today and Kapono will be home too!

Got my haircut yesterday. No one will cut it as short as I want it... maybe they know something I don't... like I would look awful? Papa is getting his hair cut today.

Papa was home again last night and he is home today until 3! And it is Friday so we have the weekend coming up! Yippee!!!! Well... that is about all I got today. Have a wonderful weekend.

xoxo