Working on getting better!

It is Sunday!  It is cloudy but not raining like it did yesterday!  But I love the rain.  Especially at night. I love a rainy night....like the song!  We have great deck roofs which bring a lot of noise I love.   This has been a relaxing day.  Trying to feel better and I think I am starting to!  It is hard to describe how I have been feeling.  It is in my head...I don't mean like I am crazy.  I have had sinus pain, ear pain, headaches, dizziness mostly. Also some neck and back pain. It has been almost a week going on.  So I have been keeping a low profile.  I'm a homebody anyway but when you aren't feeling right it is easier to stay home.  
  Back in 2012 I had gone to the specialist in Seattle regarding my ear issues. I looked it up in my health website. What the doctor had written was I had skull anomaly and conductive hearing loss. He found from my MRI skull base lesions on the right and left. Two types of lesions on temporal bones. The right was called encephalocele (protrusion of brain through a bony defect). The left was a bone defect (enhancement pattern is suggestive of a nerve sheath tumor of the facial nerve).  I really don't know what all that means.  He was suppose to discuss the images with a neuroradiologist and let us know. Never heard back.  I don't really remember what he said except something about if my brain continued to seep through the defect (hole) I may need surgery. I would know if my face started getting paralysis. I don't have anything like that so I think I am ok there.   I guess I just need to buck up and go see the doctor. I hate spending the money when it could be nothing.

Well, I gained some of my weight back.  Back on the treadmill.  Back to cutting my food supply. Things I have neglected this year.  I eat when I am sick and do NO exercise.  This is my 3rd time feeling bad since Christmas!  There is the weight gain.  lol!  Wish me luck.  Better yet, pray!

Papa spent the day with his sister again. He did Monday-Friday.  Saturday he stayed home and rested. He really is a good brother!  I just hope he isn't being a nuisance. I don't think I would like my brothers with me every day at the hospital. But they wouldn't anyway.  Haha....two of my brothers don't even call me...not even on my birthday or holidays. Papa just got home and took scruffy for a walk.  He hasn't been able to take him lately so that dog was really excited! He loves that dog!

A friend posted this on facebook and I love it.  I need to pay attention to it, too!

Tonight we're having Shake and Bake Chicken and Julienne potatoes.  Have you ever had boneless/ skinless breast baked this way?  It is so good and tender.  Easy and good.

Well, that about sums up life lately.  A few new pics of my grandbabies and family birthdays and I will close.

Madi was sick one day.

Riley and her new softball uniform

Patrick and his new bike

Heather, the only female school board member, and the rest of the school board were awarded certificates of appreciation! So proud of her!

Scruffy resting. I love that dog.

 Birthdays last week!
Corey Black (our nephew):

Our son-in-law Brad, turned 44~

And our other son-in-law, Joel, turned 40!  Don't we have handsome boys?????

Another thing I need to remember is this I can't save people.  I want to save the world in more ways than one.  Especially my loved ones!  You can see them heading the wrong way and you can't stop them.  Breaks my heart.

Have a great week.  No big plans for us. :D  My dad's birthday is coming up on Wednesday. I miss him.  A lot of us do!!!

Prayer requests please!

Ok, today is going to be my journal entry.  I have stuff on my mind I need to get off.  First of all, please pray for my sister-in-law, Rhonda.  She lives in Forks and is down in Bremerton at the hospital.  She has been having trouble with her knee to the point she couldn't even walk on it she was in so much pain.  She had a fall on Saturday which really did her in. She went to the hospital and they did a scan and saw a tumor on her knee. It looked like it is eating away at her knee. So they sent her to a bigger hospital in Bremerton Monday night.  They did an MRI on her knee and chest, an xray on her knee, and then today they are doing a full body scan.  No results or answers on anything yet.  It is scary waiting.  Lanny is really feeling bad for his sis and he doesn't worry much....but he is pretty concerned. He spent all day yesterday there and all day today.  He loves her and knows where he needs to be today.  He's a good guy.   Please pray for Rhonda.  Thanks.

Rhonda and Lanny

My complaint is small compared to hers.  I woke up yesterday with pain in my left hip.  Stuck with me most the day.  Had a headache and bowel issues.  Today the pain moved into my lower left side and my back left side.  Weird, never had this before. Please pray I feel better. I only stayed a short time at the hospital visiting Rhonda. I was really surprised how tough it was for me at the hospital.  I couldn't keep thoughts from running through my head. Thoughts about the three weeks Lanny was in the hospital. No one knows how difficult that time was.  How he almost died! Time after time. Five to be exact. It was emotionally insane. I had to be so strong I don't know how I did it.  But God. He did it.  I know that is the truth whenever I wonder how I made it through it....I couldn't have without help. The help coming from God. He saved Lanny over and over. He is an awesome God. I also thought about the day in that hospital walking into my dads hospital room and he was dead.  And being in that same hospital holding my mom's hand as she died. It was a bit overwhelming. Everything happens at that hospital. On the bright side...Karla and Kevon were born there. So was Parker, Dylan, Jordy and Patrick.  So good things have happened in that building. Not all sad.


Brings me to another concern.  My love for God is so deep. I love Him so much and need Him so much.  Every minute of every day. For the air I breathe.  For each beat of my heart. I am so confused why everyone doesn't feel the same way.  There is no other explanation in this world but God. Things aren't just created without a creator.  The Bible is real.  It is the oldest best selling most read Book ever written because it was God inspired. It is infallible.  The truth is in the Book. Jesus is the truth, our only way to salvation, our only way to Heaven. Some people I love have questioned the existence and truth lately. My heart is aching.  Please pray for this screwed up world. And my loved ones.

I also need prayer for our family.  A marriage needs prayer bad. I pray things change.  I pray they find their love and commitment to the Lord and to each other. Please pray with me!  God restore.

See why there is so much on my mind?  Why prayer is needed?  Why I just want to curl up in a ball and hide my head sometimes?  Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much.

Well, this wasn't a very uplifting post but it is what it is.

sad loss, scared dog, and birthday girl!

Happy February!!!  I am so glad it is finally here.  Closer to Spring!  January was such a long month. Football is over.  Sadly on a loss.  That game was  heartbreaking yesterday.  Our team messed up at the end and we lost the game.  One of my favorite players is Marshawn Lynch.  Here is what he said:

Instead of running with Marshawn Lynch, offensive coordinator Darrell Bevell called a pass, Russell Wilson was picked off, and the Patriots sealed the victory.

NFL Media's Aditi Kinkhabwala asked Lynch after the loss if the running back was surprised he didn't get the ball. "No," he replied.

When pressed further why he wasn't surprised, the running back known as "Beast Mode" said, "because football is a team sport."

That response is one reason Lynch's teammates love him. He never throws anyone under the bus -- even if that play call warranted coaches to be sent under a 16-wheeler.

With NFL Media Insider Ian Rapoport reporting Sunday morning that the Seahawks want to give Lynch a contract extension that includes $10 million in 2015, Lynch and his Seattle teammates could have a chance to avenge their Super Bowl defeat next year.

I noticed I haven't typed in here for awhile.  I don't know why except there isn't much to write about. Lauren spent the weekend.  That was fun! Yesterday we all went to church and after church she went with her friends to help babysit.  She made money so that was cool and she had fun.  We had a great time at church.  We don't go very often.  I am closer to my Lord now than I was going to church.  It is just me and Him during worship and prayer. That is when I feel close to Him.  "Church" is hard for me.  The people are usually great.  What is hard is the politics and leadership and betrayal and backstabbing and hurting one another. I've seen it in every church. It taints it for me. However, on the other side it is nice to see  friends, papa enjoys going, the message was really good and I was blessed by these things.  I am glad we went.  It is where Andrew and Lauren go and it was nice they found us after their Sunday School class.  Lauren met Gin... and Gin adores Andrew!  Judie gave Lauren the hugest hug!  She's known her since she was born and amazed how grown up Lauren seems!  Proud Grandma!

Went home to watch the Superbowl.  I don't understand what is going on with my dog!!!! He hates football now.  He starts stressing out and you see it.  He starts by growling.  Pretty soon he is barking.  He hides under the table in the dining room.  The only time I've seen him under the table is if I am leaving. He gets upset by it.  Anyway, then he climbs into Papa's lap. He's never been up there like that with the cat there too. It was pathetic and funny at the same time.  

Awwww...my sweet husband just brought me biscuits and gravy from Central Market.  It is the best in the world.  I love them.  That was so nice of him. What a nice surprise.  

It was great!  Today is my nieces birthday! Happy Birthday Vicky!!!! I made this for her today! She loves her bulldogs! 

We got paid and Papa got a new pair of shoes and I got a tablet.  It will arrive on Friday and then I get to figure out how to use it.  Yeehaw!  Well, I can't  think of much more to write. Except for a prayer request for our son and daughter-in-law.  They need prayer bad!!!! Please pray for Ryan and Amanda!  And especially their kids Andrew and Lauren.

Have a great week.  Again, I will try to write more often.